I mentioned to one of my friends the other day that I used to write poems but that my most recent ex-boyfriend found them too depressing to read (either that or he was just too lazy and wanted an excuse to stop). She said something along the lines of how poems should be "inspirational" so she wouldn't want to read them either. I find all of this somewhat amusing because the vast majority of my poems are depressing, dark, angsty, etc. I've tried writing poems of a lighter tone but they often come out sounding very cliched, even more so than my angsty ones.
When I was in high school my emotions ran so high that writing poems was my only (safe) outlet and it was the one thing that I could always rely on to calm me down no matter if I was depressed, angry, lost. Even now, when I no longer need that outlet quite as desperately, these are the only feelings that I can hold onto strongly enough to craft into a poem. It literally feels like those feelings flow onto the paper as I write (or, in more recent times, type) and I actually do feel much lighter in the end.
I suppose on some level it's a good thing that the frequency of my poems decreased once I started undergrad because it indirectly meant that I was emotionally more stable? Though, on the flip side, it also meant that all my inspiration and creativity seemed to go right down the drain. How ironic.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
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