Eyes closed tightly, blocking out reality
How many seconds, minutes pass by
Ragged breaths that betray true feelings
Sensations that push their way to the surface
Almost too much yet not nearly enough
A rising desperation that cannot be fulfiled.
Fingers clenched, entwined in sheets
How many hours, days slip by
A knotted guilt that refuses to unravel
A body too trained to ignore the touches
Writhing in barely concealed pain and pleasure
An obsession that threatens to overwhelm.
- 25/April/2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Untitled 19-5-10
The feeling of hopelessness pervading my senses
A sinking hint of desperation deep inside
Give me all of your hate and all of your lies
I will take your everything to fill my nothing
Twist your agony even deeper into me
Burning desolation that can never be quenched.
Whispers of temptation trailing across my skin
Touch me more, hate me more, break me more
Make me want you even more until my submission
I will envelope your everything to satiate my nothing
Drive your despair even further into me
Obscene desire that can never be fulfiled.
- 19/April/2010
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Written to SID's "Memai". And somewhat influenced by the GazettE's "Filth in the beauty".
A sinking hint of desperation deep inside
Give me all of your hate and all of your lies
I will take your everything to fill my nothing
Twist your agony even deeper into me
Burning desolation that can never be quenched.
Whispers of temptation trailing across my skin
Touch me more, hate me more, break me more
Make me want you even more until my submission
I will envelope your everything to satiate my nothing
Drive your despair even further into me
Obscene desire that can never be fulfiled.
- 19/April/2010
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Written to SID's "Memai". And somewhat influenced by the GazettE's "Filth in the beauty".
Thursday, August 12, 2010
"Dreams"
This invisible line that cannot, should not be crossed
I can only stand and watch you from the sidelines
A goodbye that can only be heard in dreams.
This heartbeat that cannot, should not be heard
Silent confessions of unforgivable feelings
A song that can only be sung in dreams.
This love that cannot, should not exist
You can only blind your eyes to my pain
A life that can only be lived in dreams.
-18/April/2010
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When I wrote this poem I added a little note at the bottom that it doesn't really make sense and that maybe I'd recycle it into a better poem later on. After reading it numerous times, I've come to like it and find what little sense there is to it. Not only that, but when have I ever "recycled" my poems anyway?
This was written to "Sleep" by SID.
I can only stand and watch you from the sidelines
A goodbye that can only be heard in dreams.
This heartbeat that cannot, should not be heard
Silent confessions of unforgivable feelings
A song that can only be sung in dreams.
This love that cannot, should not exist
You can only blind your eyes to my pain
A life that can only be lived in dreams.
-18/April/2010
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When I wrote this poem I added a little note at the bottom that it doesn't really make sense and that maybe I'd recycle it into a better poem later on. After reading it numerous times, I've come to like it and find what little sense there is to it. Not only that, but when have I ever "recycled" my poems anyway?
This was written to "Sleep" by SID.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Upcoming poems
The next poem I'm going to post really marks the beginning of a stylistic change, more so than the one from November 2009. Aside from song titles/music becoming a much bigger influence, I also began to take my poem writing more seriously, like I used to before. Instead of just carelessly writing my emotions out in the span of a few minutes, I really sat down and tried to channel them into something more eloquent and flowing. I don't know if it worked, and it's still very much an ongoing effort but I hope that my sincerity and feelings have somehow made it through.
My poems, for the most part, have also taken on a much darker tone, a bit reminiscent of my older ones. All this really means is that there's less heartbreak and more angst, heh. I've also been experimenting with slightly more uncomfortable subjects, though it's probably not obvious from the poems themselves.
Anyway, I hope these upcoming poems reflect my growth as a poet (am I qualified to call myself such?) and my desire to improve.
My poems, for the most part, have also taken on a much darker tone, a bit reminiscent of my older ones. All this really means is that there's less heartbreak and more angst, heh. I've also been experimenting with slightly more uncomfortable subjects, though it's probably not obvious from the poems themselves.
Anyway, I hope these upcoming poems reflect my growth as a poet (am I qualified to call myself such?) and my desire to improve.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Untitled 28-1-10
Closing my heart once more
To these feelings that can never be realised
Like dreams that break and shatter
Useless emotions that only hold me back
Why is it always like this?
Trying to live once again
Without depending on your presence
Don't be so nice to me all the time
Useless hope that only holds me back
Why is it never enough?
Letting my mind wander, just once
Back to when I thought I understood your heart
More complex than I give you credit for
Useless memories that only hold me back
Why is it so hard to forget?
- 28/Jan/2010
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Woohoo! Finally reached the 2010 poems.
To these feelings that can never be realised
Like dreams that break and shatter
Useless emotions that only hold me back
Why is it always like this?
Trying to live once again
Without depending on your presence
Don't be so nice to me all the time
Useless hope that only holds me back
Why is it never enough?
Letting my mind wander, just once
Back to when I thought I understood your heart
More complex than I give you credit for
Useless memories that only hold me back
Why is it so hard to forget?
- 28/Jan/2010
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Woohoo! Finally reached the 2010 poems.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Untitled 29-11-09
Let me hear your voice again
Just one more time
Let me feel your warmth
Remind me of my loneliness
Without you by my side
And whenever I forget about you
Be there to hold me back
Tie me down with your selfishness
And never let me go.
- 29/Nov/2009
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If you've ever been to my main blog, you'll recognise this one. Even though it's really short, I like it a lot. It's very simple but still gets the point/feelings across.
This is also the last poem for 2009. Yes, I only wrote 2 poems last year. :(
Just one more time
Let me feel your warmth
Remind me of my loneliness
Without you by my side
And whenever I forget about you
Be there to hold me back
Tie me down with your selfishness
And never let me go.
- 29/Nov/2009
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If you've ever been to my main blog, you'll recognise this one. Even though it's really short, I like it a lot. It's very simple but still gets the point/feelings across.
This is also the last poem for 2009. Yes, I only wrote 2 poems last year. :(
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Untitled 17-11-09
Things always happen for a reason
Is what they tell me
And deep down I know I'm better off
Without you in my life
But sometimes I can't help but feel
That sense of yearning
Whenever I reminisce about our past.
If this is how we're supposed to be
Why do tears find me
At night when I miss you the most
When will I convince my heart
Of what my mind already knows
That our happy ending
Is only meant to be when we're apart.
- 17/Nov/2009
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Written while looping Lee Seung Gi's "Happy Ending".
There's a 1+ year gap during which I apparently didn't write anything at all (either that or I just can't find them). I was extremely out of practice when I wrote this but I think it turned out okay. Nothing great and kind of cliched, but not overly bad either.
This also sort of marks the start of an inspiration change; most of the poems (though not the next two) after this are inspired by a song title or the music itself.
Is what they tell me
And deep down I know I'm better off
Without you in my life
But sometimes I can't help but feel
That sense of yearning
Whenever I reminisce about our past.
If this is how we're supposed to be
Why do tears find me
At night when I miss you the most
When will I convince my heart
Of what my mind already knows
That our happy ending
Is only meant to be when we're apart.
- 17/Nov/2009
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Written while looping Lee Seung Gi's "Happy Ending".
There's a 1+ year gap during which I apparently didn't write anything at all (either that or I just can't find them). I was extremely out of practice when I wrote this but I think it turned out okay. Nothing great and kind of cliched, but not overly bad either.
This also sort of marks the start of an inspiration change; most of the poems (though not the next two) after this are inspired by a song title or the music itself.
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